| boyfriends leaving for two weeks vacation...
so im taking time to drop weight.
home made scared heart soup.
1300pm Friday Dec 19, 2008
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| so0o0... i need to update.
i need to get this off my chest.
to "someone" who wont spill my guts.
i have a new boyfriend.. it def. amazing..
because were both military, and known each other for almost two years (come feb)
but its strange bc when he was in iraq, was when i was dating my ex josh..
and my bf [jason] knows all about .. a ton of stuff.
josh being one of them..
and jason n i are together now.. and its not exactly easy.
not us thats not easy.. but he deploys soon to afghanistan..
and will be gone most of the months prior to deploying..
but its kinda cool bc im done with the mil in jan.
hes amazing. more then i thought he COULD be..
but his deployment.. and the fact his base is 4 hours away..
makes things hard.
just emotionally..
i could [and possibly already am] able to fall for him..
hes able to handle me at my worst.. and at my best.
he brushes off the stupid shit.. yet is there for me when i need him..
even when i dont think i do need him. hes there.
and its hard..
bc i want so hard to just fall..
but i know with his being deployed soon.. it'd just be too emotionally hard for me..
and for once.. i want to be by a mans side..
it takes a lot to be in a military relationship. and i want THIS one to work.
♥
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| EDIT:
ever feel like you want to run your ex over with a bus?
i hate guys.
this weekend was amazing..
the after effects are not. my uniform barely fits
and my weight just keeps going up i need a laxative or something.. [& water pills]
just so i can feel empty.. and
start things all over. the new boy is taking me sailing soon. im so excited <3 weekend overview:
new tat. casino. sex. =]
shopping. beach. music. |
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this weekend was amazing..
the after effects are not. my uniform barely fits
and my weight just keeps going up i need a laxative or something.. [& water pills]
just so i can feel empty.. and
start things all over. the new boy is taking me sailing soon. im so excited <3 weekend overview:
new tat. casino. sex. =]
shopping. beach. music. |
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